I wish they just get together...
So i can end this..
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was falling in love with you
Sorry that I needed you
Sunday, August 28, 2011
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Everybody's laughing in my mind,
Rumors spreading 'bout this other guy,
Do you do what you did when you
did with me?
Does he love you the way I can?
Did you forget all the plans
that you made with me?
'cause baby I didn't!
That should be me,
Holdin' your hand,
That should be me
Makin' you laugh,
That should be me,
This is so sad,
That should be me,
That should be me,
That should be me,
Feelin' your kiss,
That should be me,
Buyin' you gifts,
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that,
That should be me
That should be me,
Yeah,
You said you needed a little time
For my mistakes,
It's funny how you used that time
To have me replaced,
Did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies
Whatcha doin' to me,
You're takin' him where we used to go,
Now if you're tryin' to break my heart,
It's working 'cause you know that,...
That should be me,
Holdin' your hand,
That should be me,
Makin' you laugh,
That should be me,
This is so sad,
That should be me,
That should be me,
That should be me,
Feelin' your kiss,
That should be me ,
Buyin' you gifts,
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that,
That should be me
I need to know should I fight
For our love for this long
It's getting harder to shield
This pain in my heart!!!
Rumors spreading 'bout this other guy,
Do you do what you did when you
did with me?
Does he love you the way I can?
Did you forget all the plans
that you made with me?
'cause baby I didn't!
That should be me,
Holdin' your hand,
That should be me
Makin' you laugh,
That should be me,
This is so sad,
That should be me,
That should be me,
That should be me,
Feelin' your kiss,
That should be me,
Buyin' you gifts,
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that,
That should be me
That should be me,
Yeah,
You said you needed a little time
For my mistakes,
It's funny how you used that time
To have me replaced,
Did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies
Whatcha doin' to me,
You're takin' him where we used to go,
Now if you're tryin' to break my heart,
It's working 'cause you know that,...
That should be me,
Holdin' your hand,
That should be me,
Makin' you laugh,
That should be me,
This is so sad,
That should be me,
That should be me,
That should be me,
Feelin' your kiss,
That should be me ,
Buyin' you gifts,
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that,
That should be me
I need to know should I fight
For our love for this long
It's getting harder to shield
This pain in my heart!!!
Monday, July 18, 2011
Friday, July 15, 2011
You said you are tired, that you couldn't love anyone again...
後視鏡裏的世界 越來越遠的道別
hou shi jing li de shi jie yue lai yue yuan de dao bie
The world from the rear view mirror becomes more and more like a distant goodbye
你轉身向背 側臉還是很美
ni zhuan shen xiang bei che lian hai shi hen mei
You turn around but your side profile is still very beautiful
我用眼光去追 竟聽見你的淚
wo yong yan guang qu zui jing ting jian ni de lei
I use my vision to chase you, yet I hear your tears
在車窗外面排徊 是我錯失的機會
zai che chuang wai mian pai hui, shi wo cuo shi de ji hui
Outside the car window, is my missed opportunity
你站的方位 跟我中間隔著淚
ni zhan de fang wei gen wo zhong jian ge zhe lei
the place where you stand and mine is separate by tears
街景一直在後退 你的崩潰在窗外零碎
jie jing yi zhi zai hou tui ni de beng kui zai chuang wai ling sui
The street views are continuously receding, you start to fragment outside the window
我一路向北 離開有你的季節
wo yi lu xiang bei li kai you ni de ji jie
I head towards the north to leave the times we've shared
你說你好累 已無法再愛上誰
ni shuo ni hao lei yi wu fa zai ai shang shui
You said you were already tired and cannot fall in love with anybody again
風在山路吹 過往的畫面全都是我不對
feng zai shan lu chui guo wang de hua mian quan dou shi wo bu dui
The wind is blowing on the mountain road, all of our previous memories were my wrongdoings
細數慚愧 我傷你幾回
xi su can kui wo shang ni ji hui
Counting my shamefulness, I have hurt you too many instances
我一路向北 離開有你的季節
wo yi lu xiang bei li kai you ni de ji jie
I head towards the north to leave the season which describes you
方向盤周圍 回轉著我的後悔
fang xiang pan zhou wei hui zhuan zhe wo de hou hui
My regrets revolves around my steering wheel
我加速超越 卻甩不掉緊緊跟隨的傷悲
wo jia sui chao yue que shuai bu diao jing jing gen shui de shang bei
I tried to accelerating, but i cant ditch the closely following sadness
細數慚愧 我傷你幾回
xi shu can kui wo shang ni ji hui
Counting my shamefulness, I have hurt you too many instances
停止狼狽 就讓錯純粹
ting zhi lang bei jiu rang cuo chun cui
Stop the anguish by letting my wrongdoings
Regretted, why i didn't make you mine when i had the chance,
Wish i can turn back time.
hou shi jing li de shi jie yue lai yue yuan de dao bie
The world from the rear view mirror becomes more and more like a distant goodbye
你轉身向背 側臉還是很美
ni zhuan shen xiang bei che lian hai shi hen mei
You turn around but your side profile is still very beautiful
我用眼光去追 竟聽見你的淚
wo yong yan guang qu zui jing ting jian ni de lei
I use my vision to chase you, yet I hear your tears
在車窗外面排徊 是我錯失的機會
zai che chuang wai mian pai hui, shi wo cuo shi de ji hui
Outside the car window, is my missed opportunity
你站的方位 跟我中間隔著淚
ni zhan de fang wei gen wo zhong jian ge zhe lei
the place where you stand and mine is separate by tears
街景一直在後退 你的崩潰在窗外零碎
jie jing yi zhi zai hou tui ni de beng kui zai chuang wai ling sui
The street views are continuously receding, you start to fragment outside the window
我一路向北 離開有你的季節
wo yi lu xiang bei li kai you ni de ji jie
I head towards the north to leave the times we've shared
你說你好累 已無法再愛上誰
ni shuo ni hao lei yi wu fa zai ai shang shui
You said you were already tired and cannot fall in love with anybody again
風在山路吹 過往的畫面全都是我不對
feng zai shan lu chui guo wang de hua mian quan dou shi wo bu dui
The wind is blowing on the mountain road, all of our previous memories were my wrongdoings
細數慚愧 我傷你幾回
xi su can kui wo shang ni ji hui
Counting my shamefulness, I have hurt you too many instances
我一路向北 離開有你的季節
wo yi lu xiang bei li kai you ni de ji jie
I head towards the north to leave the season which describes you
方向盤周圍 回轉著我的後悔
fang xiang pan zhou wei hui zhuan zhe wo de hou hui
My regrets revolves around my steering wheel
我加速超越 卻甩不掉緊緊跟隨的傷悲
wo jia sui chao yue que shuai bu diao jing jing gen shui de shang bei
I tried to accelerating, but i cant ditch the closely following sadness
細數慚愧 我傷你幾回
xi shu can kui wo shang ni ji hui
Counting my shamefulness, I have hurt you too many instances
停止狼狽 就讓錯純粹
ting zhi lang bei jiu rang cuo chun cui
Stop the anguish by letting my wrongdoings
Regretted, why i didn't make you mine when i had the chance,
Wish i can turn back time.
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Saturday, July 09, 2011
tonight I'm feeling fine
I'm alone, just wasting time
No Friday movie nights
Or romantic candle lights
I'm just having conversations
With the thoughts in my head
All I hear are angels crying
Oh, won't they just sing instead
It would be WRONG for me to say
I don't need that girl by my side
I don't need that girl in my life
I don't want to talk it out
Or hold her when she cries....
I don't want to say she's my kind
I don't want to say that she's mine
I don't want to tell her that
I love her more than life
More than life, Yeah
Love her more than life
Honestly, this won't do
How is she doing?
I tell myself I'm feeling swell
But I know I'm such a fool
I could take it as a new beginning
But you know I don't feel that way
Who will take all this pain away?
I know it's wrong for me to say
I don't need that girl by my side
I don't need that girl in my life
I don't want to talk it out
Or hold her when she cries
I don't want to say she's my kind
I don't want to say that she's mine
I don't want to tell her that
I love her more than life
More than life, Yeah
Love her more than life
I'm alone, just wasting time
No Friday movie nights
Or romantic candle lights
I'm just having conversations
With the thoughts in my head
All I hear are angels crying
Oh, won't they just sing instead
It would be WRONG for me to say
I don't need that girl by my side
I don't need that girl in my life
I don't want to talk it out
Or hold her when she cries....
I don't want to say she's my kind
I don't want to say that she's mine
I don't want to tell her that
I love her more than life
More than life, Yeah
Love her more than life
Honestly, this won't do
How is she doing?
I tell myself I'm feeling swell
But I know I'm such a fool
I could take it as a new beginning
But you know I don't feel that way
Who will take all this pain away?
I know it's wrong for me to say
I don't need that girl by my side
I don't need that girl in my life
I don't want to talk it out
Or hold her when she cries
I don't want to say she's my kind
I don't want to say that she's mine
I don't want to tell her that
I love her more than life
More than life, Yeah
Love her more than life
Friday, July 08, 2011
Tears, me apart.
When she keeps drinking non stop,
When she keeps quiet and doesnt tell me anything,
When she tried to shovel me away,
When she just keeps quiet and sits there alone,
When she justs keep asking for beers,
When she keeps talking in japanese, i really wish i understand what she said.
It really hurts me alot. I wish i can read her mind..
When she falls down and cry, i am glad that i were there to hold her.
I feel the immerse pain even tho my whole body was numb,
Whispering words to her, telling her,
That i will be there for her, always.
I will carry her, never let her down,
When she keeps quiet and doesnt tell me anything,
When she tried to shovel me away,
When she just keeps quiet and sits there alone,
When she justs keep asking for beers,
When she keeps talking in japanese, i really wish i understand what she said.
It really hurts me alot. I wish i can read her mind..
When she falls down and cry, i am glad that i were there to hold her.
I feel the immerse pain even tho my whole body was numb,
Whispering words to her, telling her,
That i will be there for her, always.
I will carry her, never let her down,
Tuesday, July 05, 2011
Nice guy?
Nice guy/NG,
Being a nice guy to a girl. Might in end as friends. I dont wanna be a NG.. But i dont know how to.. Doesnt means not being a NG is becoming a Bad guy, Who hits, cheat, doesnt care about her guy.
I think i am being way too nice to her. I got an advice saying if this continues, i might end up as a best friend. Damn. Wanted to spend more time with her... but her time schedule are tight!
Friend : Hey you got to move fast, but not to fast if not, when it takes too long. You will be her best friend.
Me: Seriously? I dont know what to do.
Friend: Go with the flow, try to ask her more out on a date. Show her that you are interested with her. Do the 5s.
Me: What 5s?
Friend: Eye Contact, Make her Laugh, Remember the things she said, Make some physical contact, Ask her out!. This is the 5s and dont confess! Confess is totally gonna get u screwed! Confess is for losers.
I still dont know how she feels about me. Bought her meds. Ask her out for dinner. Ask her for movies. Her schedule are too tight!
NG tends to finish last. Why? From what i know from other NGs. Normally girls thinks NG is boring, and they tends to go out with.. lets say bad guys.. They are more exciting, fun. When the girls got boring with the Bad guys, if anythings happens. The girls will look at a NG for company and if the NG are lucky. They get her.. So that why, NG finish last. Nice Guy Syndrome.. Sux.
Being a nice guy to a girl. Might in end as friends. I dont wanna be a NG.. But i dont know how to.. Doesnt means not being a NG is becoming a Bad guy, Who hits, cheat, doesnt care about her guy.
I think i am being way too nice to her. I got an advice saying if this continues, i might end up as a best friend. Damn. Wanted to spend more time with her... but her time schedule are tight!
Friend : Hey you got to move fast, but not to fast if not, when it takes too long. You will be her best friend.
Me: Seriously? I dont know what to do.
Friend: Go with the flow, try to ask her more out on a date. Show her that you are interested with her. Do the 5s.
Me: What 5s?
Friend: Eye Contact, Make her Laugh, Remember the things she said, Make some physical contact, Ask her out!. This is the 5s and dont confess! Confess is totally gonna get u screwed! Confess is for losers.
I still dont know how she feels about me. Bought her meds. Ask her out for dinner. Ask her for movies. Her schedule are too tight!
NG tends to finish last. Why? From what i know from other NGs. Normally girls thinks NG is boring, and they tends to go out with.. lets say bad guys.. They are more exciting, fun. When the girls got boring with the Bad guys, if anythings happens. The girls will look at a NG for company and if the NG are lucky. They get her.. So that why, NG finish last. Nice Guy Syndrome.. Sux.
Saturday, July 02, 2011
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Spicy!
Yo blog!
Tonight i had dinner with her, spicy pan mee and brought her to sweet bean to have dessert.. She told me alot of things... very happy ^^
Tonight i had dinner with her, spicy pan mee and brought her to sweet bean to have dessert.. She told me alot of things... very happy ^^
Monday, June 27, 2011
LOL
Guess what.. lol this might sound funny..
1st time she told me she will text me when she reach home after a dinner party and guess what.. she forgot!
And then this is the 2nd time. when i text her on skype.. she was rushing to go and she said she will text me in a short while.. and she forget it too!.
Guess what! I M LOVIN IT! xD (not being sarcastic here.)
1st time she told me she will text me when she reach home after a dinner party and guess what.. she forgot!
And then this is the 2nd time. when i text her on skype.. she was rushing to go and she said she will text me in a short while.. and she forget it too!.
Guess what! I M LOVIN IT! xD (not being sarcastic here.)
Friday, June 24, 2011
The harder we clap.. the more the pain we feel...
Yeok tam yeong ji but wooi giu hou but suin joei tou hou
(Appearance wise, I'm not attrative or likeable)
Dan ngo dik noi joi mei but gao mei dou na juk yee ji hou
(My inner beauty is also not good enough and I'm not proud of it)
Tam wai yan dong yin hou / Seong sao ya hou pou
(Character wise, I'm of course good, my arms are nice to hug)
Mou noi dook yao boon loei man chin lou
(Who knows there are only passerbys asking for direction)
Moot yao seong pui tong lun gah nam hai tiu mou
(Never want to dance with a boy-next-door)
Wai dook dong ngo see tou
(Only treat me as an associate)
Yan yan chan gan ngo / Mou yan jang duit ngo
(Everyone comes close to me, but no one goes after me)
Mou yan guan wai see soei dai peng mai chan woh
(No one cares who is the most amiable)
Ping fan jeong ngo lou guo sap goh chee ngo
(A person as common as me passing by, ten others are like me)
Ching dik sat joi tai doh
(There are too many love rivals)
Yeok tam yeong ji but wooi giu hou but suin joei tou hou
(Appearance wise, I'm not attrative or likeable)
Dan ngo dik noi joi mei but gao mei dou na juk yee ji hou
(My inner beauty is also not good enough and I'm not proud of it)
Tam wai yan dong yin hou / Seong sao ya hou pou
(Character wise, I'm of course good, my arms are nice to hug)
Mou noi dook yao boon loei man chin lou
(Who knows there are only passerbys asking for direction)
Moot yao seong pui tong lun gah nam hai tiu mou
(Never want to dance with a boy-next-door)
Wai dook dong ngo see tou
(Only treat me as an associate)
Yan yan chan gan ngo / Mou yan jang duit ngo
(Everyone comes close to me, but no one goes after me)
Mou yan guan wai see soei dai peng mai chan woh
(No one cares who is the most amiable)
Ping fan jeong ngo lou guo sap goh chee ngo
(A person as common as me passing by, ten others are like me)
Ching dik sat joi tai doh
(There are too many love rivals)
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Progressing?
Yo blog, m back! Things progress normally. eh.. but these few days i dont feel like myself. Still cant focus on what am i doing. It have been a restless nights these few days. Barely able to sleep. My brain keep thinking and thinking and thinking. I was able to sleep for 4-5 hours only.. aw man..
Maybe i have step too deep........ too early........ must stop falling deeper...
The higher the hope, the higher the disappointment.. Must wake up..
Maybe i have step too deep........ too early........ must stop falling deeper...
The higher the hope, the higher the disappointment.. Must wake up..
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Lost control.
Hey blog, i am back again. It been a few days now.
I am not being myself lately. My mind is out of control. I keep thinking about her daily,everyday,everytime.The moment i open my eye.I keep thinking,Should i send her sms? What should i say to her? Should i ask her out for dinner? Is it too early to ask her out? Then is ask her for dinner, where should i bring her? Will it be an awkward dinner? There is a weird feeling going thru me whole day.. I just cant focus. I am losing my mind! I wish there is someone guide me thru this! God help me!
Just came back from dinner with my Bro-in-Law. He keep asking me to go for it. Put up ur courage. Cherish the time, before she is someone else. Words are easy, action aint.
I want to talk to her more, but we only been chatting thru Facebook Private messaging. I am not being myself. I dont know what to talk with her. I am afraid i will disturb her during her work. Everytime we chat, the conversation just will end in 3-4 replies, and thats it. I dont know what to say.. My brain just wont work, Every replies i send to her.. i think twice or thrice, i afraid i might said the wrong thing. I get all nervous. Such a Wuss... Anyways.. Blog, Thanks
I am not being myself lately. My mind is out of control. I keep thinking about her daily,everyday,everytime.The moment i open my eye.I keep thinking,Should i send her sms? What should i say to her? Should i ask her out for dinner? Is it too early to ask her out? Then is ask her for dinner, where should i bring her? Will it be an awkward dinner? There is a weird feeling going thru me whole day.. I just cant focus. I am losing my mind! I wish there is someone guide me thru this! God help me!
Just came back from dinner with my Bro-in-Law. He keep asking me to go for it. Put up ur courage. Cherish the time, before she is someone else. Words are easy, action aint.
I want to talk to her more, but we only been chatting thru Facebook Private messaging. I am not being myself. I dont know what to talk with her. I am afraid i will disturb her during her work. Everytime we chat, the conversation just will end in 3-4 replies, and thats it. I dont know what to say.. My brain just wont work, Every replies i send to her.. i think twice or thrice, i afraid i might said the wrong thing. I get all nervous. Such a Wuss... Anyways.. Blog, Thanks
Monday, June 20, 2011
Wo Bu zhi dao.
Its have been a long time since i have been posting in this blog of mine.
Hmm.. an empty blog.. is me and the blank space. its u and me empty blog, share my loneliness, let me write down the words that i not able to talk it with my closest friend. Its is not i dont wanna have a gf but, i think i dont have confident in me and i am not good in this. Afraid of scaring the girls away, Yes, u can call me weak. Falling for someone isnt easy. Thinking about them all day, Eat, Sleep, in the toilet, driving.Its have been been 5-6 years and now. The day has come, the day which makes my brain crazy, my heart running.
Its have been a long time since i been falling for someone. This girl, very special, But I didn't appreciate the chance when i have it.
Met her at a college named INTEC College, I was enrolled in Graphic Design and she was enrolled in Interior Design. Due to family matter i had to end my studies after 3 months. After that, i never meet her again. I dont know what was i thinking that time. It have been a few years.Since 2006? Haha..
http://maxtkg.blogspot.com/2006/05/goodbye-my-lovergoodbye-my-friends.html
Now i was able to meet her again. At first i thought there wont be anything going in me. I met her a few times, out for brunch with her and friends. Everything was going fine until the day. Super GT Femme Fatale 2011.A party with free flow of Beer! Alcohol does weaken my heart and mind.. I was thought it was a normal friends outing, but the more i drink, the more i was attracted to her.
I wish that night have been a longer night or I have a better courage
I dont know how to approach her.. I am not good with this..
This is time when all of this feelings gets together.. Nervous, anxiety.. No confident.
I hate this feeling.. I wanna get close to her, but i am afraid. I dont have any topic to talk with her, my mind is in a chaos mode! Cant focus! Cant Think! What should i do?!!??! I afraid i bored her. Hey Blog, if u think i am taking it too seriously which cause me go in chaos mode. Yes, I am, I am very serious about her.
People said, Chances doesnt come everytime. This might be the chance, I wan to take that chance!! But the other me, have no courage to stand up to her. Awww man. I am such a loser. I dont have a career, I dont have money,.. Maybe i am being too traditional thinker. I dont MATCH her. What am i thinking?!?! ARGH! I really dont know wat to do. Really dont know what to do. I wanna go out have breakfast, brunch, lunch, dinner , supper with her. I wanna go to the movies with her, I wanna go dating with her. Hmm.. mayb i think too far? There even not a single stroke of the Ten stroke..
I wanna sms her. But i dont know what to write to her. I dont even know how to start a conversation!! Damn! After the party, i dont dare to sms her, i always keep looking a the FB to see whether she got any status on or comment on the photos on the party nite.. I slide open my phone, click new messages, Insert her phone number, and i just stop there.. then delete.. and again.. delete.. again.. delete.. again.. delete..
After thinking whether to sms from 8-1 o'clock.. Guess what?? I sms her in the evening at 7 o'clock. What a wussy of me.. Zooming up genting and down such brave of me.. but approaching a girl... its another story.. After i sms her at 7 o clock in the evening.. She didnt reply me. Then i start to get in to anxiety mode. keep thinking "What happen?" "Is she sleeping? Due to tiring sunday?" alot of question came to me. It have been a long night. Keep looking at the phone. Pathetic. What should i do?
Oh no.. I dont know how long this feeling will last.. I am going crazy.. I wanna share this with my friends, maybe.. maybe not.. ><
Oh man.. this post if full of "maybe" "i dont know what to do".
After writing this down.. i do feel abit better than keep all this all to myself..
GARY CAO-SHU DAO WU DA YING.
第一次看着你 就为你心动
di yi ci kan zhe ni jiu wei ni xin dong
On our first meeting, you moved my heart
聪明的我 怎能让你走
cong ming de wo zhen neng rang ni zou
If im smart, how could I let you go
第二次看见你 我竟然失控
di er ci kan jian ni wo jing ran shi kong
On our second meeting, I actually lost control
是我的错 请你原谅我
shi wo de cuo qing ni yuan liang wo
Its my fault, please forgive me
第三次看见你 想要告诉你
di san ci kan jian ni xiang yao gao su ni
On our third meeting, I want to tell you
我真的爱你 是真的爱你
wo zhen de ai ni shi zhen de ai ni
I really love you, really love you
第四次看着你 我有些要求
di si ci kan zhe ni wo you xie yao jiu
On our fourth meeting, I have some requests
请你能够 安安静静的聆听
qing ni neng gou an an jing jing de ling ting
I hope you can listen to me, quietly
一.让我保护你
yi. rang wo bao hu ni
One. Let me protect you
二.让我照顾你
er. rang wo zhao gu ni
Two. Let me take care of you
三.所有的要求不能当作游戏
san. suo you de yao qiu bu neng dang zuo you xi
Three. Don't take my request as a game
四.接受这命运
si. jie shou zhe ming yun
Four. Accept this fate
五.永远不分离
wu. yong yuan bu fen li
Five. Don't ever leave me
说你愿意
shuo ni yuan yi
Say 'I do'
那最后一个一定要说你愿意
na zui hou yi ge yi ding yao shuo ni yuan yi
Lastly, you must please say you do
Want be your lover want be your man
我只要你开心多一点
wo zhi yao ni kai xin duo yi dian
I only want you to be happier
我只希望给你多一点
wo zhi xi wang gei ni duo yi dian
I only hope to give you more
Can you be my lover don�t wanna be your friend
给你幸福到永远
gei ni xing fu dao yong yuan
Give you everlasting bliss
给你幸福每一天
gei ni xing fu mei yi tian
Give you bliss everyday
因为我Want be your lover want be your man
ying wei wo
Because I
说你害怕 因为受过伤
shuo ni hai pa ying wei shou guo shang
You are scared, because you've been hurt
不需要害怕 因为我不是他
bu xu yao hai pa ying wei wo bu shi ta
Don't be afraid, because I'm not him
Hmm.. an empty blog.. is me and the blank space. its u and me empty blog, share my loneliness, let me write down the words that i not able to talk it with my closest friend. Its is not i dont wanna have a gf but, i think i dont have confident in me and i am not good in this. Afraid of scaring the girls away, Yes, u can call me weak. Falling for someone isnt easy. Thinking about them all day, Eat, Sleep, in the toilet, driving.Its have been been 5-6 years and now. The day has come, the day which makes my brain crazy, my heart running.
Its have been a long time since i been falling for someone. This girl, very special, But I didn't appreciate the chance when i have it.
Met her at a college named INTEC College, I was enrolled in Graphic Design and she was enrolled in Interior Design. Due to family matter i had to end my studies after 3 months. After that, i never meet her again. I dont know what was i thinking that time. It have been a few years.Since 2006? Haha..
http://maxtkg.blogspot.com/2006/05/goodbye-my-lovergoodbye-my-friends.html
Now i was able to meet her again. At first i thought there wont be anything going in me. I met her a few times, out for brunch with her and friends. Everything was going fine until the day. Super GT Femme Fatale 2011.A party with free flow of Beer! Alcohol does weaken my heart and mind.. I was thought it was a normal friends outing, but the more i drink, the more i was attracted to her.
I wish that night have been a longer night or I have a better courage
I dont know how to approach her.. I am not good with this..
This is time when all of this feelings gets together.. Nervous, anxiety.. No confident.
I hate this feeling.. I wanna get close to her, but i am afraid. I dont have any topic to talk with her, my mind is in a chaos mode! Cant focus! Cant Think! What should i do?!!??! I afraid i bored her. Hey Blog, if u think i am taking it too seriously which cause me go in chaos mode. Yes, I am, I am very serious about her.
People said, Chances doesnt come everytime. This might be the chance, I wan to take that chance!! But the other me, have no courage to stand up to her. Awww man. I am such a loser. I dont have a career, I dont have money,.. Maybe i am being too traditional thinker. I dont MATCH her. What am i thinking?!?! ARGH! I really dont know wat to do. Really dont know what to do. I wanna go out have breakfast, brunch, lunch, dinner , supper with her. I wanna go to the movies with her, I wanna go dating with her. Hmm.. mayb i think too far? There even not a single stroke of the Ten stroke..
I wanna sms her. But i dont know what to write to her. I dont even know how to start a conversation!! Damn! After the party, i dont dare to sms her, i always keep looking a the FB to see whether she got any status on or comment on the photos on the party nite.. I slide open my phone, click new messages, Insert her phone number, and i just stop there.. then delete.. and again.. delete.. again.. delete.. again.. delete..
After thinking whether to sms from 8-1 o'clock.. Guess what?? I sms her in the evening at 7 o'clock. What a wussy of me.. Zooming up genting and down such brave of me.. but approaching a girl... its another story.. After i sms her at 7 o clock in the evening.. She didnt reply me. Then i start to get in to anxiety mode. keep thinking "What happen?" "Is she sleeping? Due to tiring sunday?" alot of question came to me. It have been a long night. Keep looking at the phone. Pathetic. What should i do?
Oh no.. I dont know how long this feeling will last.. I am going crazy.. I wanna share this with my friends, maybe.. maybe not.. ><
Oh man.. this post if full of "maybe" "i dont know what to do".
After writing this down.. i do feel abit better than keep all this all to myself..
GARY CAO-SHU DAO WU DA YING.
第一次看着你 就为你心动
di yi ci kan zhe ni jiu wei ni xin dong
On our first meeting, you moved my heart
聪明的我 怎能让你走
cong ming de wo zhen neng rang ni zou
If im smart, how could I let you go
第二次看见你 我竟然失控
di er ci kan jian ni wo jing ran shi kong
On our second meeting, I actually lost control
是我的错 请你原谅我
shi wo de cuo qing ni yuan liang wo
Its my fault, please forgive me
第三次看见你 想要告诉你
di san ci kan jian ni xiang yao gao su ni
On our third meeting, I want to tell you
我真的爱你 是真的爱你
wo zhen de ai ni shi zhen de ai ni
I really love you, really love you
第四次看着你 我有些要求
di si ci kan zhe ni wo you xie yao jiu
On our fourth meeting, I have some requests
请你能够 安安静静的聆听
qing ni neng gou an an jing jing de ling ting
I hope you can listen to me, quietly
一.让我保护你
yi. rang wo bao hu ni
One. Let me protect you
二.让我照顾你
er. rang wo zhao gu ni
Two. Let me take care of you
三.所有的要求不能当作游戏
san. suo you de yao qiu bu neng dang zuo you xi
Three. Don't take my request as a game
四.接受这命运
si. jie shou zhe ming yun
Four. Accept this fate
五.永远不分离
wu. yong yuan bu fen li
Five. Don't ever leave me
说你愿意
shuo ni yuan yi
Say 'I do'
那最后一个一定要说你愿意
na zui hou yi ge yi ding yao shuo ni yuan yi
Lastly, you must please say you do
Want be your lover want be your man
我只要你开心多一点
wo zhi yao ni kai xin duo yi dian
I only want you to be happier
我只希望给你多一点
wo zhi xi wang gei ni duo yi dian
I only hope to give you more
Can you be my lover don�t wanna be your friend
给你幸福到永远
gei ni xing fu dao yong yuan
Give you everlasting bliss
给你幸福每一天
gei ni xing fu mei yi tian
Give you bliss everyday
因为我Want be your lover want be your man
ying wei wo
Because I
说你害怕 因为受过伤
shuo ni hai pa ying wei shou guo shang
You are scared, because you've been hurt
不需要害怕 因为我不是他
bu xu yao hai pa ying wei wo bu shi ta
Don't be afraid, because I'm not him
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