lala

It's has been a long time since i blogged.It has been 1 YEAR!!! Many things have changed since then, Ups and Downs..I have been mature at thinking, not like last time. I admit that last time my thinking was damn freaking childish. That what life is.. It been a year my mom's wholesale business been running. Seems good, gonna have a shop lot at Bukit Bintang there.. for retail.. It sound greats... yea.. it does.. But not on my father's side.. Pub... the business have been very bad.. not good at all. Now they are discussing about selling out the business after CNY. The pub have been up for 6 years.. it is sad to see it to be like that..

Now everyone have their own job now... working for their future, getting a bright, good, happy future. I am still studying in my CIB ( Certificate In Business) Course. Have wasted 1 year time for studying. Kinda feel regret about it. As people says " You sleep in the Bed, You made". I always want to work in a office enviroment, but everyone is waiting for me to takeover my mom's and dad's business.. but I not really happy with it. But it has to be me.. My Sis has been doing good in her advertising company. Her boss have been very good to her and she have a very good bf. She is one lucky girl. I heard that she gonne be a Account manager next year and she havent even work in the company for 1 year!!! Anyways.. It's good to heard that she is doing fine. Hope she doesnt stress herself out.

Nowadays I really dont know what to do with myself. Study not.. Working not... Feeling useless..
One of my friend caught a puppy near his house.Dont know what kind of dog it is..It looks like shis tzu to me. It have long fur and size of a shih tzu. They brought it to the vet. The vet said it is a roadside dog. But I dont believe it.. normally those roadside dog are big and has short furs.. They seem to like the dog very much, but the dog very very naughty. He loves to bite ur feet. His sharps teeth hurts alot. haha.. he is just too playful..

Life have been normal when I met someone. She older than me. Haha.. It is weird for some of you for a guy dating a older girl. I used to hate it dating older or younger girls..i prefer someone who is same age as me.. Mayb she changed my mind. I do really like her.. I didnt make any serious move to date her cause she just broken from a relationship. So i decide to wait and give her sometime. So i just invite her come out have a drink, dinner and hang out. Nothing seems to go better. It just go ------------ or \... means it either nothing or goes down. Very hard to invite her out. Mayb our age gap is too wide.. Nothing to say while having dinner or during Yum Cha session. I tried to bring some topic out to talk.. but it seems.. i am the one who keeps asking the question and she is the one who is answering. It hurts. I ask my friend (girl) for advice and comment. She is honest. She told me that "if this kind of situation you are facing, shows that the girl dont have any interest in you". It does hurt me alot. But atleast i know it. I kinda agree with it.Its have been 2 weeks i didnt see her. I have been just sms-ing her only. But i dont feel any better. Dont know what she is thinking. Mayb she is hiding it from me. I just dont know. I asked her " How are you?". She will just reply " Just normal lo". I understand that girl is protective, and doesnt tell anything to you if she doesnt trust you. But she told me b4 that she trust us. I really dont know what is going on in her mind. She is on holiday now.. Thought can invite her out for yum cha. Guess what.. Disappointed. She always occupied or tired. Until now I still cant invite her out. It really hurts me when she reply me " cant le.. you enjoy la". Hate to see these words. I just dont have the confidence to date her. Or just i dont have fate with her. I just been MSN-ing with her. She said she quite busy with personal stuff. Wondering what kind of personal stuff is she dealing wif... I know i shouldnt stick my nose into someone's personal stuff. From my point of view, Personal stuff are Financial , Love and Family. Her Financial and Family looks alright for me. Mayb she is Having love problems. Another new love.. mayb..i just think too much.

It is good to see my friend being with their loves ones.. How they can get together and stay like that. They seems to be very happy and lovely. Haha.. 2 thumbs for them. Wish they can stay like that.

I dont have the looks,the style, the cash, the cars,...

I have always been keeping every sad things. I wanna find someone who I can spit everything out to. I dont have a GF. So I cant. MY friend.. They cant give any advice nor comment. But Only one can. She listen an gives advice and comments. But it isnt enough, So i decided to Open my blog again.. Write everything down. Release myself, type everything, spit everything. I do feel better when i am typing this.